WANTS & NEEDS

Look at the link my friend sent me ..
http://thingsthatlooklikeotherthings.tumblr.com/

wouldn't you much rather marvel at these creations all day, than falling asleep at every attempt
to prepare for exams? I CALL THIS MY STUDY BREAK .

Wouldn't it be cool to have your whole house/room to be filled with all these "things that look like other things" These are just some of my favourites :)

coat hanger that looks like dripping paint

pillow that looks like a fortune cookie

bar of soap that looks like an iPhone


plates that look like cartoon speech bubbles




clock that looks like a roll of film

IF I COULD DEDICATE YOU A SONG

Livvi Franc? totally digging her song

"Now I'm That B*tch"

She's total bad-ass in this song and I love it.

I'm fully giving this song shout-outs to all my girls that ever got dissed / rejected / kicked to the curb

by punk-ass SCRUBS .

THIS SONG WILL FULLY MOTIVATE YOU

TO GO HARDER

AT WHATEVER

YOU'RE ALREADY GOING HARD AT.

one line used in the song to sum it all up :

"YOU WERE TOO FLY THEN. SO FLY AWAY NOW."

this song is worth your repeat button. check it out .

UNTITLED STAGE

I have a huge love for DRAKE and my friend got me to listen to a short (but sweet) song done by DRAKE called "SOMETHING".

It's really nice to listen to, especially if you're in that stage with someone when things are still untitled and you're hesitating or wanting to go forward with someone. Check it out.

Fallin' too fast

Clearly rules don't apply

Can't believe that I just met you

You got me here

Watching minutes past by

Wondering when to express you

There you go

Is this a dream

Looking like every picture

That I seen of you before

I've seen it all before

Now that it's over. I shoulda known better

When you think this is real and

You could be mine

I should have known better

Slowed it down cause I feel

You needed time

But I kept thinking

This could be something

Maybe it's just nothing at all

But this could be something

This could be something

Maybe it's just nothing at all

I guess it's what we make it

MUST DO

I have whipped up a to-do list to make my life easier right now..

1) Clean up and tidy my messy room. A room resembles one's life.

2) Cry. Just have a long hard cry and stop holding it in.

3) Start my assignment. Starting is the hardest bit. So just get on with it.

4) Stop being scared of the dark and stop going to bed when the sun has risen

5) Chill with the love songs man.. just play something else for a while.

6) Fold my washing

7) Re paint my nails- but this time stay away from the usual muted colour. Wear a bright shade

8) Fill in my flat bond form with Hayley

9) Eat something .

10) Stop torturing myself with "what if's" and "maybe" or the "shoulda woulda coulda's"

10 things.

10 things to make my little steps go forward and avoiding taking 5 steps BACK .

Because when it all falls down, who you gon' call ? - just some words from Kanye

DOWNTIME JABBER

I WANT TO FEEL LIKE A SUPERWOMAN

SO I CAN DO ANYTHING & EVERYTHING ..

WHILE STILL LOOKING GOOD DOING IT

& KEEPING ON A GIGANTIC SMILE NO MATTER WHAT THE SITUATION IS.

Just winding down after eating a CHICKEN CARBONARA PIE *DROOL*

and a few hours of what people here call "clubbing".

It can get so gross man .. and you only seem to notice when you finally put the drink down and you take a closer look at what is going on.

Clubbing (club.bing) : verb : Sweaty arse people all packed into a room,
with sh*t all ventilation dancing off beat to blaring music. awesome.

Nah, to be honest, I'm really just being a hater right now because ....

[enter life story.....]

There was this chick who kept using me as some sort of back support ??

Drink in hand and leaning on me like she didn't have a spine of her own

.

She then turned around stumbling and accidentally kicking me in the shins..

It was okay the first time, but her doing it three times kind of pushed it for me.

So.. Me being the anger management kiddo that I am

She made me reeeal cross at this point, so i tried sprinkling some of my fairy dust bullsh*t on her to try and stop her from annoying me more .. coz that neeever goes down well ...

THEN.. Dont you hate it when out of the blue.. ANOTHER overly drunk "stud" tries to step in and act as the heroic one and then aims to sort everyone out ?

Please. Just. Get. Away. From. Me.

How about seeing a chick in the EXACT same outfit put together like mine from months ago?

bleh. reehh. yeerp. . doesn't matter because it was done first - right here.

Me when it was July 2009 @ Dawn's 21st.

Well, Besides this 30 second must-be-there event,

it was an okay-quite-average-manageable night.

RANT RANT RANT.

GOOD NIGHT =]

MISS EHSANI

woke up hung . finally got my lazy self up at 2.30pm . ate tasteless mac 'n' cheese for dinner from the dining hall .went to the BOP vs TURBO'S rugby game at night . came home early . took the longest shower & then covered myself in body butter. yum. watched fast & the furious : Tokyo Drift. currently watching bad boys . i want melody ehsani earrings. i think melody ehsani is amazing . not much to my day today really .

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The two ladies i'd love to meet one day.

Rihanna + Melody Ehsani

ON THE REEEEAL

Straight up.Things have turned pretty much 180* in the span of about 2 days.

But it's amazing what talking and letting things out by crying does to help.

I really miss him man. Straight up.

And all this is messing up my sleeping once more, when I was already slowly getting my life sorted again.

Although circumstances call for stressful and moody bitch times.. I somehow feel sort of relaxed? maybe not so relaxed .. but more at peace?

Nah, I'm fully telling fibs. Virtually impossible to feel that way 97% of the time. I actually I only ever feel that way when I'm blocking everything out.

Hmm.. I miss our old memories but looking forward to making new memories completely

overtook my mind.

ch-ch-check this out . An old drawing I did .

Enough of that.

My room is actually ridiculously cluttered / messy / dis-organised

it's absolutely CHAOTIC . man.. all this is telling me is that I need to sort my sh*t out ! haha

See you when I get there .

11.36 PM

Little trial for tomorrow's dress-up party.

OCCASION : Tawa Hall Massey University's End of Year Partaaaay

THEME : Dress up "I WISH I WAS A . . . . "

WHEN: 15th October

I'm going as a . . . .. CHOLA . hahah this is gonna be fun . Teased big hair with a bandanna going around my head. Red lip liner, thin as drawn on eye brows, big gold hoops, white wife beater, beige baggys, got my chucks on too hehehe

here's my trial look :

CRANKIN' THE CRAIGY

4 words to describe what I'm feeling?

1)KICKED

2)IN

3)THE

4)STOMACH

"I'm walking away .. to find a better day.. "

PEACE . Enjoy the day.

LAZY SUNDAY

Had an "N" themed party for Nicole's 19th last night. It was heaps fun and I can say we pretty much all had a very enjoyable night free of drama and all that kind of stuff that comes with a Saturday night.

Nights like that help me get over the fact at how this place can be such a hole .

I had absolutely no idea what to dress up as .. I found my bunny ears + tail set so I went as a "N"aughty Bunny ? Yeeeerp.. how lame I know. My creative juices weren't exactly

flowing were they....

"N"emo + "N"aughty bunny + "N"eon + "N"ightee

What a sweet song

// D'Angelo : I found my smile again

PIECES OF ME

Woke up at around 2pm and it felt amazing

Turned the T.V on and and this random arse show "GRΣΣK" was on ..

never seen it never even heard of it.

I started watching it to put my Psychology 101 assignment off for even longer,

and an issue that was raised was

LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS .

how convinient .

Yesterday night .. My beautiful girlfriends Hannah and Kelsea came knocking on my door and dropped off a little surprise gift :)

Cuddly cuddly cuddly soft toy for me to hug at night and my favourite chocolate to keep things

s w e e t <3

because I can't wait for Tipo to finally come back home . xxo

My new way to get to sleep // SLEEPING EYE MASK:

1) it works woooonders

2) i got it free from Royal Brunei Airways hehehe

OKEY DOKEY .

Really doubt i'll be going out tonight.. my final psych 101 assignment needs to be done by Monday !

I haven't even looked at the question . Wish me luck xxo

SUPERHUMAN

I deleted my old blog posts and thought I'd start my blog fresh over,

from scratch, from nothing ..

back to square one sort of business. Another one of my

quick + snappy decisions ?? UH HUH.

WELL, I'm pretty much too tired, completely submerged in uni work and

stuck in the *shrug it off* mood

to give two flying f*cks about much really aye ..

anywhoooos .. It's been a week since I have slept at NIGHT,

in the beautiful hours of the NIGHT .

...when the rest of the population of New Zealand does.

Sad thing is.. Really..

I couldn't even give you ONE

productive example of a task I have accomplished during these sleepless nights.

I'm telling you .. I look at the time and it's about 1:30am,

that's pretty decent for me ..

then before I know it I swear someone has TRICKED ME

because then the time says it's something whack like 6:30am !? TIME FOR CAFFEINE FIX :)

Before I know it .. the bloody sun has risen.

Moving right along from my insomniac rants..

DUDE. Tonight, I just had a random obsession with

SUPERHEROES

SUPERHEROES

SUPERHEROES.. and anything to do with them hehe

I put on my Spider Man DVDs,

Got all into it and even gave in to my google.com abusive side ...

dude. talk about SPARE TIME . shit son..but i love it <3

Just the whole idea and concept of a masked hero,

sweeping a girl off her feet, saving the day, heroic kind of thing got me all in

superhero mode .

a girl can dream .... haha.

LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT .