ON THE REEEEAL

Straight up.Things have turned pretty much 180* in the span of about 2 days.

But it's amazing what talking and letting things out by crying does to help.

I really miss him man. Straight up.

And all this is messing up my sleeping once more, when I was already slowly getting my life sorted again.

Although circumstances call for stressful and moody bitch times.. I somehow feel sort of relaxed? maybe not so relaxed .. but more at peace?

Nah, I'm fully telling fibs. Virtually impossible to feel that way 97% of the time. I actually I only ever feel that way when I'm blocking everything out.

Hmm.. I miss our old memories but looking forward to making new memories completely

overtook my mind.

ch-ch-check this out . An old drawing I did .

Enough of that.

My room is actually ridiculously cluttered / messy / dis-organised

it's absolutely CHAOTIC . man.. all this is telling me is that I need to sort my sh*t out ! haha

See you when I get there .

11.36 PM

Little trial for tomorrow's dress-up party.

OCCASION : Tawa Hall Massey University's End of Year Partaaaay

THEME : Dress up "I WISH I WAS A . . . . "

WHEN: 15th October

I'm going as a . . . .. CHOLA . hahah this is gonna be fun . Teased big hair with a bandanna going around my head. Red lip liner, thin as drawn on eye brows, big gold hoops, white wife beater, beige baggys, got my chucks on too hehehe

here's my trial look :

SUPERHUMAN

I deleted my old blog posts and thought I'd start my blog fresh over,

from scratch, from nothing ..

back to square one sort of business. Another one of my

quick + snappy decisions ?? UH HUH.

WELL, I'm pretty much too tired, completely submerged in uni work and

stuck in the *shrug it off* mood

to give two flying f*cks about much really aye ..

anywhoooos .. It's been a week since I have slept at NIGHT,

in the beautiful hours of the NIGHT .

...when the rest of the population of New Zealand does.

Sad thing is.. Really..

I couldn't even give you ONE

productive example of a task I have accomplished during these sleepless nights.

I'm telling you .. I look at the time and it's about 1:30am,

that's pretty decent for me ..

then before I know it I swear someone has TRICKED ME

because then the time says it's something whack like 6:30am !? TIME FOR CAFFEINE FIX :)

Before I know it .. the bloody sun has risen.

Moving right along from my insomniac rants..

DUDE. Tonight, I just had a random obsession with

SUPERHEROES

SUPERHEROES

SUPERHEROES.. and anything to do with them hehe

I put on my Spider Man DVDs,

Got all into it and even gave in to my google.com abusive side ...

dude. talk about SPARE TIME . shit son..but i love it <3

Just the whole idea and concept of a masked hero,

sweeping a girl off her feet, saving the day, heroic kind of thing got me all in

superhero mode .

a girl can dream .... haha.

LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT .