YOU ARE ..

unreliable, vain and the phrase,
“the grass is always greener”,
was made for you.

x

IF A MAN FEARS NOTHING

HE LOVES NOTHING.

In order to love, there is fear attached in the possibility that it may be lost.

If a man fears nothing, this means that he has nothing that he holds close to him. If he held something close to him, he would be terrified of losing it.

A man who may come across as someone who fears nothing - may interestingly just be the man to fear everything.

To never have, is to never lose. No risks.

What kind of life is that?

you took my love.

i stayed at home like a good girl do

but tonight baby you got me sad and blue .

getting hannah's hair diiiiiiiiid for the army dinner. :)

45 Rules of Life (Written By Regina Brett)

Read through each of these points and really think about them.

Live. Laugh. Love.

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and
family will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.
8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will
this matter?’
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time enough time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.
35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative (dying young).
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside, every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d
grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.”

muahahahahaha....

We were as one baby, for a moment in time and it seemed everlasting that you would always be mine.
Now you want to be free,
so I'm letting you fly
because i know in my heart baby.. Our love will never die.

You'll always be a part of me, I'm a part of you indefinitely. Boy don't you know you can't escape me,
ooh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on.. time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're never gonna shake me. Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

YOUR LOVE .

Shawty I'm a only tell you this once,

you're the illest

and for your lovin' I'm a Die Hard like Bruce Willis

enough is enough .

wanna make love to my baby.

All these thoughts on my mind I gotta get them out
Tryin but I cant figure out
Remember in high school I used to skip class just to SEX YOU.
Homeroom was the only place I could call you
Now its like every time I call never get thru
That bullshit that we been through
Dam I MISS YOU
Its like you kick a nigga out
Moved on to the next one
I hope maybe we can work it out
Dam I be wishin you was here right now .

pick another .

homie, lover and friend.

WITH EVERY PIECE OF ME THAT WANTS YOU.

ANOTHER PIECE BACKS AWAY.

YOU GIVE ME SOMETHING

THAT MAKES ME SCARED, ALRIGHT.

F*CK !!

I MISS THE MESS WE CAUSED TOGETHER.

"Missin' everything you say

Missin all the crazy love we made.

Why'd you throw it all away?

I want you to know

It's been hell tryna do this without you here."

make me wanna say say, bye bye. DEUCES.

If you've got that person that makes you wonder "what if?"

"ran across a picture you took of me and you crossed my mind, I still hear you saying you love me when I close my eyes... If I didn't go away for school, then where would we be? probably still together and somewhere happy. If we're supposed to be moved on into new relationships,
darling why are you still haunting me?

They say.. If you love something let it go. If it comes back then it's how you know. I got to the stop light, then I made four rights, now I'm back where I started and you're back in my life. The further I go the closer I get back to you. I say I've moved on 'till I'm reminded of you. Can somebody help me.. Help me get out of this circle. Out of this circle."

- M. Houston

tormenting me in my serenity.

I'm all wrapped up in his arms
But you're the one I really want,
Truly he's the nicest guy,
But I want you and I don't know why.

We fought more than Tyson and Holyfield,
Something about us felt so real,
Now I'm next to dude,
I don't want nobody but you.

I don't,

I don't want,
I don't want,
I don't want,
I don't want nobody but you
After all you put me through.
I don't want,
I don't want,
I don't want,
I don't want nobody but you
After all you're still my boo
I don't want
I don't want
I don't want
I don't want nobody but you
After all you put me through
I don't want
I don't want
I don't want
I don't want nobody but you

I seen you in the store yesterday,
I was hoping you would look my way,
In line with things I used to buy us,
Reminding me, of me and you.

I'm still wondering how I feel,
So strong about something I left last year
It's scandalous how I sleep beside dude,
But all dream of is you.

THINKING OF YOU.

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go?

I guess second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you

Thinking of you,

What you would do if you were the one who was spending the night

Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes...

You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter

Like a hard candy with a surprise center

How do I get better once I've had the best?

You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth

He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself....

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you

Thinking of you,

what you would do if you were the one who was spending the night

Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes..

You're the best, and yes, I do regret

How I could let myself let you go

Now, now the lesson's learned

I touched it, I was burned

Oh, I think you should know!

Oh, won't you walk through?

And bust in the door and take me away?

Oh, no more mistakes

'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay....

REALLY.

REALLY NOW?!

yeah, you would wouldn't you.

what would my mama do? if she knew about me and you.

does the man even know you're alive? I've got an idea... why don't you be my GIRLFRIEND?

But you hesitatin debatin' whether or not it's real

I ain't shootin game, boo, I'm just tellin you how I feel

I'm diggin everything about you

Your hips an' the way the swing

I hate to see you leave boo, but love to see you walk away

I'll be your personal shrink boo I care what ya think

I bought the Bentely in pink coz my dough in sync

So tell ya man bye bye and tell 'em you're long gone

Ain't no needin' wait up you done found you another home.

lonely people // talib kweli

"Tattoos tell 'em who you are
Plastic surgery cause your tired of god
Uh, lasers to remove the scar
And then you are, you a supastar, supastar
It's your birthday and you in the club
Talkin' "Holla back" and "Nigga what"
So much cleavage and asscrack
If pussy were a stock it would plummet on the Nasdaq
Blank stares like nobody care
In a room so exclusive nobody there
But really, truth is that nobody there"

bittersweet poetry .

And I always thought that you having our child was our destiny
But I can't even vibe with you sexually
Cuz every time I would try, you would question me
Saying "You fucking them girls, disrespecting me?
You don't see how ya lies is affecting me.
You don't see how our life was supposed to be.
And I never let a nigga get that close to me.
And you ain't cracked up to what you was supposed to be.
You always gone, you'll always be where them hoes'll be."
And this the first time she ever spilled her soul to me

KANYE.

so special.

It's been a really rough month and one way that brings joy to my life is reading old cards and letters from past and present friends, and family.

I keep getting surprised with some of these cards, reading what the messages written inside them say and even more of a surprise when I read who wrote them. Times change, but these memories I have kept bring me to a place I can't even describe. They help me to appreciate relationships I had formed and new ones that have become a part of my life.

There are some unforgettable memories that are attached with these words written in these letters and cards. All I can say is Thank you God for blessing me with such beautiful people in my life and the different ways they have all touched my life in his or her own way.

it's because ..

you're not prince charming .

and I'm not Cinderella .

LOVE YOU & MISS YOU.

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough

But the heart keeps telling you 'don't give up'

Who are we to be questioning wondering what is what?

Don't give up through it all just stand up

Through it all just stand up .....

90 miles outside Chicago. Can't stop driving I don't know why. So many questions, I need an answer. Two years later.. You're still on my mind

Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain

Someday we'll know why the sky is blue

Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you.

yum.

I'm so into now, wanna be more than a friend to you now.

"And any dude with you, he better be a king to you now
And I aint jealous, it's the principle now
I'm so into you

I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it ..."

you won't look back.

the beauty and frailty of life.

adventure.

dedication.

hanging on weeks and weeks.. maybe years. I can.

hanging onto every memory and making every moment count. I can.
a second first kiss and puppy love. I can.

you won't look back with me.

HONOR

TRUST

LOYALTY .

NEVER TAKING ONE SECOND OF OUR TIME FOR GRANTED.

:)

semester one. done.

Passed all my papers this semester. Super happy but I honestly feel that I need to stop relying on luck, or whatever it is, that keeps me going with my studies.

More work and focus would give me marks to be proud of..

but... till then.. WOOHOOOOOO !!

according to KLS // what it takes to achieve what you desire

" YOU NEED A LOT OF FOCUS, PREPARATION AND...... DEODORANT."

don't be gone for too long.

"I pictured me holding you
I pictured you holding me
We can watch a movie girl
I just bought some brand new dvd's
And I wondered if you felt the same
Just say the word,

I'll be on my way
I'm just a few blocks away
I just wanna see your pretty face."

- pretty ricky

the beauty of forgiveness.

Come to me
I'll restore freedom
I'll carve away the worries in your heart

Your heart is missed
I'm a mess, what happened to second chance
This is now, this is how easy things can get out of hand
We were cold, and we were slow then, now we end faster than light, than light.

-Mary J Blige.

almost too good to be true.

you're into this and that.

and wanna teach me a whole new world.

i totally love it.

it was shallow and lacked substance.

HAPPY.

The past month has been the hugest eye opener. I never fully appreciated the beauty of doors closing and stepping through new doors opening for me until now. I was staring at a closed door for so long that it was only hindering me from experiencing joys in life I had neglected all this time. It feels amazing and I am so happy with every aspect in my life. Fresh semester. New people. Brand new issues. A whole new me.

it is what it is aye..

Just because her eyes don’t tear doesn’t mean her heart doesn’t cry.